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絕對 何韻詩 何炳合唱 SUPERGOO 2009 演唱會

快要過的十一月，送大家一首會令我聽一次哭一次的歌。

曲/編：英師傅 for double c music group
詞：黃偉文

共誰玩　共誰做伴侶
進步到　某一點　熱情就會退
自然散去　茶涼掉　淡似清水

命途上　問誰是絕對
注定脈搏相通　十年又過去
廿年過去　仍然是未變的一對

★就算全個世界　亦都失去　他也在這裡
　全場突然寂靜　他都給我衷心的讚許
〔如何亂行亂撞　他都准我隨時回去睡〕
　就算誰愛過我　又給收去　他熾熱不退
　旁人視為負累　他偏不覺苦　靜心等我歸去
〔如何大成大敗　他的寵愛中　亦都只有一歲〕

沒承諾　續廷萬萬歲
要是合約　一方食言　就破碎
善男信女　誰情義　歷劫不衰

若緣份　易來又易去
結伴大概只因　暫時被配對
在人際裡　誰才是被愛的根據

Repeat ★(★)

共誰玩　共誰做伴侶
進步到　某一點　熱情就會退
共同進退　唯獨是父母這一對

Vincent van Gogh 1853 - 1890

A Wheatfield, with Cypresses (1889), Oil on canvas, 72.1 x 90.9 cm

這一刻，很想很想和大家分享這幅油畫。
在這位畫家無數作品中，這一幅是我最愛的。

曾試過站在這畫前數小時，當時腦袋一片空白地望着它，但心裡卻重複地問着同一條問題 "你畫這畫時，你究竟在想着什麼呢？" 當時的他（van Gogh)，已經入住鳥精神病院。

I survived the day...

...but more like I pushed everything aside. It is because I have been busy with taking care of my son so there was no time to do anything else, even though he slept for some time during the day. I only survived the day, there is still months and years to come.

This definitely leads me to no where because the problem still exist, it was not treated and it will explode some day when it hits. Where can I vent these days? I could not leave house by myself since I have a responsibility. I could not go too far because I have no where to go to. I could not do something that I will enjoy doing because I have no time slots for it. I could not this I could not that...who is to blame, no one no one.

I need an exit, where can I find it? I can forsee if conditions does not improve, I may never climb back up, which is so unhealty mentally and physically. I hardly sleep these days and even if I do, I get nightmares. I hardly eat during the day. Nothing seems to interest me anymore, there is no motivation to do anything. I can see what this comes down to ~ depression. Chocolate did not help this time round. It is not the economy but ME.

Sorry but cannot promise a paragraph this time because I currently have no thinking cab on, but promise to return with one.

一步登天

或許自己比他人起步慢
或許自己欠缺耐性
或許自己時日無多

做每一件事都希望很有效率和迅速地去完成，但往往現實與夢想還有一點兒距離。

情深對話~賈宝玉

黛玉：我現在捨不得

寶玉：我知道

黛玉：我們會再見面嗎

寶玉：要分開鳥 才能再見面

黛玉：那麼我們再見面的時候 會分開嗎

寶玉：還會

黛玉：既然還能見面 為什麼還要分開

寶玉：因為這樣我才能掛念你

黛玉：你的心裡祗有我嗎

寶玉：不 你就是我的心

以上對白來自舞台劇賈宝玉。如果我是黛玉的話，聽鳥寶玉每句情深的回答，必定整個溶鳥下來呢！在現實生活中，我們又能找到真正屬於自己的賈寶玉嗎？ 而有幾多個會愛得像他那樣癡情？

(整個MV拍得很美，舒淇就特別超美啊)

Alcohol Drinking

Since when did I start, I do not remember.  I would say my tolerance is average, not the weakest and not the strongest either.  Most beer I drank in one night was six pints of Guinness and was still able to drive home.  Was just too full to continue drinking, if you buy me another pint, I could probably finish it.  You do not have to agree with me but Guinness is the best beer in the world.

十月三十一日

可算是心情最懷的一日，因為明天便是十一月，一個極不期待，最不希望它會來的月份。它盛載着很多往事，想起這些那些，鼻子會酸起來，淚水也會依稀流下。

其中的一件事，便是關於已故愛兒～東東。牠讓我照顧鳥牠十三年，以狗的年歲，牠已活鳥九十一年呢。共同經歷的實在太多，和牠一起遠遊，一起摔跤，有行山，有暢泳，同哭，同笑，同睡。

(已經寫鳥兩天，此終都是無法完成這篇博客，每當想到和它相處的時刻，眼淚總會不停而流)

持續。。。（請看二月七日）