I survived the day...

...but more like I pushed everything aside. It is because I have been busy with taking care of my son so there was no time to do anything else, even though he slept for some time during the day. I only survived the day, there is still months and years to come.

This definitely leads me to no where because the problem still exist, it was not treated and it will explode some day when it hits. Where can I vent these days? I could not leave house by myself since I have a responsibility. I could not go too far because I have no where to go to. I could not do something that I will enjoy doing because I have no time slots for it. I could not this I could not that...who is to blame, no one no one.

I need an exit, where can I find it? I can forsee if conditions does not improve, I may never climb back up, which is so unhealty mentally and physically. I hardly sleep these days and even if I do, I get nightmares. I hardly eat during the day. Nothing seems to interest me anymore, there is no motivation to do anything. I can see what this comes down to ~ depression. Chocolate did not help this time round. It is not the economy but ME.

Sorry but cannot promise a paragraph this time because I currently have no thinking cab on, but promise to return with one.